I’m sitting in the infusion room. It’s the eighth time I’m in an infusion chair getting an infusion, and the third time in this room. It feels oddly familiar, but still different every time. I don’t want to get used to it. I don’t want this to be part of my life. I have two more infusions and then I’m done – at least for now. I have a nagging feeling that I will have to get more chemotherapy sometime…
Yesterday after breakfast I took the last three pills of chemo in this cycle. It feels really good to have reached this milestone. I’m getting closer to the end of this journey. Three cycles to go. As I wrote in the last update it has been going surprisingly well and much better than expected (so typical me to worry too much). This week went also pretty well. I did not get more nauseous or had much more stomach problems and…
I can’t believe it is a week since I got the first infusion. This week has gone much faster and much better than I thought. The expected nausea has not appeared yet – just a faint queasiness that is lurking in the background ever so often. I have not yet needed to take any anti-nausea medication – what a relief. I do not have diarrhea – yay – quite the opposite in fact – not yay. I am very tired…
When I saw my oncologist on Thursday he again reinforced that this round of chemotherapy is done as a precaution and as an insurance to knock out any potential cancer cell that is left out. Of course there are no guarantees, but aiming for cancer free is the goal – and that is what I have to belive in. In order to make this happen he said they are throwing everything and the kitchen sink at me – and then…
Yet again it’s been a long time since I updated you on how I’m doing. I’ve been in a vacuum the last couple of weeks. Often being in a vacuum is regarded as being in a bad state, but this vacuum has been pretty good. I’ve managed to keep the feelings about the upcoming chemotherapy at a distance. I think that’s why I haven’t written a new blog post. I’ve just slowly normalized my days and enjoyed being able to…