Even if it is hard for me to feel celebratory – it is a monumental day. I’m still fighting side effects, but they are decreasing for now. That means that I can officially declare that I am half way through the chemo treatment. And I need to fight the scare of the next three that are coming up and at least say a little “yay” – I am at the half way mark.

It is easier for me to eat. My taste buds are still a mess, but the food I have now is agreeing with me. I’m happy about that. It is still a struggle with drinking. Very odd. It is not only a physical problem – it is definitely also a mental problem – my mind has decided that any type of drinking is going to lead to discomfort. I really need to have a serious conversation with myself about that. When the cell layer in my mouth I’ve lost the last few days is built back up, that conversation will hopefully become easier. 

I have had more energy today and I managed to work for a while before my hand started protesting the extensive use of trackpad. I walked a mile and a half without getting exhausted. I have been a lot more up than down, and I also made dinner with some cutting help from Benjamin. It feels good to contribute and do something – not just be. The three of us also enjoyed opening and starting a new 1000 piece puzzle project. It is nice to sit quietly together, each of us focused and working on our own part, but with a common goal.

We needed some groceries today and got help from Emily and Scott. Thank you so much! They even got hold of the last of Benjamin’s favorite pesto. He was very happy about that. His lunch is saved for a few days. We are so lucky that we have several good helpers in these strange times.