I have put a post-it note on the mirror in the bathroom. On that note there are fourteen circles, one for each day I am taking the last set of chemo pills. I need an extra motivational kick to keep my spirits up. Every night before bedtime I cross out one circle. I have crossed out half of the circles and I am now half way through the pills and can finally see the light at the end of the…
After a two mile walk and an hour of yoga I am now sitting in bed with a face mask on (not the virus prevention kind). I’m trying to get the blood flowing, joints greased, and get some color back in my tired and gray face. Lively jazz piano music is winding it’s way up the stairs from the speakers downstairs. Benjamin is humming while preparing dinner. I hear a knife chopping on the wood cutting board and I smell…
I’m sitting in the infusion room. It’s the eighth time I’m in an infusion chair getting an infusion, and the third time in this room. It feels oddly familiar, but still different every time. I don’t want to get used to it. I don’t want this to be part of my life. I have two more infusions and then I’m done – at least for now. I have a nagging feeling that I will have to get more chemotherapy sometime…
Yesterday after breakfast I took the last three pills of chemo in this cycle. It feels really good to have reached this milestone. I’m getting closer to the end of this journey. Three cycles to go. As I wrote in the last update it has been going surprisingly well and much better than expected (so typical me to worry too much). This week went also pretty well. I did not get more nauseous or had much more stomach problems and…
When I saw my oncologist on Thursday he again reinforced that this round of chemotherapy is done as a precaution and as an insurance to knock out any potential cancer cell that is left out. Of course there are no guarantees, but aiming for cancer free is the goal – and that is what I have to belive in. In order to make this happen he said they are throwing everything and the kitchen sink at me – and then…