Mosquitoes love my blood. If there was one mosquito in town – it found me. Two life changing events made me temporarily unattractive to said misquotes. The first was when I was pregnant. I went through a whole summer without misquote bites. The second was marrying James. I thought I was the most attractive one in the relationship, but no. If there is one mosquito in town – it finds James and doesn’t pay much attention to me – until…
Even if it is hard for me to feel celebratory – it is a monumental day. I’m still fighting side effects, but they are decreasing for now. That means that I can officially declare that I am half way through the chemo treatment. And I need to fight the scare of the next three that are coming up and at least say a little “yay” – I am at the half way mark. It is easier for me to eat….
I have felt better today. Not up to par – but better. Thank you for all the messages and emails I am getting. It helps to know I have a large team of supporters behind me. Your messages help me think of something else – tips on different films or shows to watch, podcasts to listen to, pictures, videos and fond memories of the good old days – and dreams of good times to come. Today it’s been easier to…
I’ve been sunken into self pity and agony for almost five days. It is not a good state to be in and it is easy to fall deep into a dark pit. When being in this state I do nothing but just exist. What I want is to just stay completely still, without moving, without feeling, without drinking, without eating, without sitting or walking or doing anything. But I can’t do that. I need to open my eyes. I need…
Today has all in all been better than yesterday. I’ve been more active and I have had far fewer headaches. It is still super hard to drink and eat. Even if I don’t have a lot of appetite, eating sort of works out. It is particularly hard to drink. That is very unfortunate. Water and fluid is so important but every sip is a struggle. Any type of fluid accentuates the foul flavor in my mouth and swallowing without gagging…