These last few days have been pretty slow. I have not been as deep into the abyss as previous cycles but this is definitely a long haul. I have managed the side effects much better this time. There are still a few more or less uncomfortable side effects that I hope ease up over the next few days. The two worst ones the previous cycles have been the taste buds and the hand spasms. Both of those I have managed reasonably well this time –  but at the cost of a slow and sleepy brain.

It has been much easier for me to drink during this cycle. I started adding some lime or lemon in my water and that did the trick. The imaginary bitter flavor in the water is gone due to the added acid. I am worried about my teeth getting acid damage, but right now it’s more important that I drink enough water.

My body is clearly working hard. For each cycle the side effects kick in earlier and harder and take longer time to ease up. I’m now on my fourth cycle – two to go. I can’t believe that 12 cycles is what most people have to do. I have said it before and say it again: I am so lucky that I only needed six. In a couple of days I hope I feel up to celebrating the two third mark. I’ve decided to celebrate by making Crêpes Suzette – if we have enough milk…

For the first time since the COVID-19 isolation I feel restless. I have a hard time getting motivated to do anything because for the most part I am confined to be in the house. After several weeks with no other “highlights” than weekly visits to the hospital and in addition low energy, it is challenging to find motivation to get dressed and get going. Due to my situation I feel like I need to enjoy my days more, but now I can’t wait for the time to pass as fast as possible so I can be done with this. Let’s see what tomorrow brings. Maybe I’m more self motivated then.